A need for time out

I live in a household of introverts and we understand our interaction needs and limitations. And we are comfortable with each other. 

But out of that context, I find it very hard to exist in a world where others expect me to interact all the time. 

I do sometimes turn down invitations and I have walked out of events and gatherings midway before, and I do feel bad about it.

Don't misunderstand me. I do enjoy get-togethers and I do look forward to meeting up with friends and family. 

But there are times when I really need that space for myself. And it's owning that space without feeling guilty about it that is bothering me. 

Maybe what I need to do is to connect with my extroverted friends and ask them how they feel and how they manage it when their invitations or expectations to connect are rejected.

And what introverts need to do is to speak up and extroverts to listen in.


Human and androids - being relational

I am watching a show on robots and androids. It deals with human emotions, about giving and taking, about expectations. 

And with that I do begin to wonder how would human and androids exist together in the future?

My good friend refuses to watch shows with androids. I haven't asked her why but I'm sure she would say that it is meaningless for a human to form relationships with a machine. And any happy endings to such dramas would be unrealistic.

I know it's still something very distant in future but I do wonder how will human and androids when they exist together relate to each other.

I do sometimes talk to my car. I know. Weird. But then I'd use it and then park it in the driveway. Forgotten.

Say if I have an android-housekeeper, I'd obviously talk to it but would I then just switch it off when work is done?

The closest we have now to an android is the smartphone. I speak to my phone to get it to do things but it's still a phone. 

But what about an android with a face and a smile?


Where do you store your photos?

I heard in the news that Google is ending their partnership with someone that manages the syncing of photos in Google Photos and I wasn't happy. 

I use Google Photos a lot and my Razer Phone 2 believe it or not does not have a photo gallery. All my photos goes into Google Photos. 

I only found out later that my fears were unfounded. The change only affected syncing between Google Photos and Google Drive, which I don't do. At least I hope that is the only thing that is affected. 

If you only store your photos in your phone, then you should take a look at syncing your phone with Google Photos. I have two of my friends who lost all their travel photos. You can imagine how devastating that can be. 

I hope Google Photos will stay for a long while. The cloud and data storage scene will see more changes as we go along and I wonder how long more will I be able to keep up with my data storage without paying a single cent.


Book Shopping Spree!

I haven't been in a book shopping spree for the longest time!

There is currently a Kindle book sale of Eerdsman books and it's really hard not to tap that "Buy now with 1-Click" button. 

There are about 9 more books I'm still deciding whether to buy or not to buy. 

There is just not enough time to read!


Listening to music in the car

My car does not like my new phone. I drive an old car and it does not have Bluetooth built-in.

It's funny that I still remember 10 years ago when I went shopping for a car, the one question I kept asking all the car salesmen was that if their cars came with a USB port.

Anyway, my car does not like my phone. I plug it in and it says "unrecognised device".

Since I cannot not listen to music, I need to find a solution and my hubby suggested I go find a Bluetooth dongle with a AUX adapter.

I found and bought one from Lazada for only RM15.

And it works.

Except that now I want it to do more. My iPhone plays my music the moment it gets plugged in. With my Razer, I had to tap it so many times to get to it play something.

That's when I found out that there are automation apps in Android. Apparently I can automatically get my phone to perform actions depending on the trigger. 

I did some search, or rather, I got my son to do some research. 

We tried Autoroid, Tasker and Automate. All of these are good automation apps, but none of them seemed to work with Apple Music.

Until my son found the MacroDroid app. He built a macro and voila! It works.

I start my car, my Bluetooth announces, "Connected", and my last played song starts playing.

I'm happy.

Though now I need to learn how to build those macros myself. For example, in order to save battery, how can I get my phone's WiFi to switched on only when I'm at home. 


A sermon on divorce

Today is the first time I've ever listened to a sermon on divorce. 

We are in the midst of expository sermons on Matthew, and our speaker Dr Leong Tian Fock had to tackle Matthew 19, on the topic of Marriage in the Kingdom. 

And he did it superbly well. I had so many questions when he first started, where he laid the foundations, but as he moved on, most if not all of my questions were answered. 

There are several views on divorce and I like this part when Dr Leong said that when godly theologians and good Bible scholars cannot come to a consensus, that means the Bible is not very clear on that particular issue and in this case an ethical issue, and this means whatever stand you take, there is a chance of making a mistake. 

And so like Dr Leong I will also take his philosophical stand, which is to err on the side of compassion. 

It's a tough thing and I know friends who are struggling with it, wanting to know exactly what the Bible says. It is therefore so very important for this to be taught in church. 

If you would like to listen to the sermon, it is found here.


How many powerbanks do you have?

I still remember the first power bank I bought. 

It was a YooBao with 5800mAh capacity that cost me at least RM200. 

That was many years ago. 

Right now, just like me, you probably would have so many you don't know what do with them.
I have 4 not counting the one that is like a lamp, which is so impractical. It's so inconvenient to carry around and putting it on the desk is useless since I will use the electric wall socket anyway. 

I know. Four. Why, right? 

From left to right: I bought the first one and thinking it was spoilt, I bought the second one. The third was a door gift and the fourth is my newest favourite thing. 

Melissa bought it for me when she was recently in Korea. Thanks Melissa! Loving it!
And how much capacity do you think I have all in all? 

29,200mAh. LOL. 


Do you like time travel shows?

Do you like to watch time travel shows?

I do, even though it's sometimes impossible to make sense out of them. 

I just finished watching this one:

Tunnel (2017)

And even though its premise and plotline is good, the acting stellar, and the ending satisfying, the series is not able to tie ends properly.

The show is about a police detective who was in the midst of a serial murder case in 1986 who found himself inadvertently time travelled 30 years into year 2016.

And in this new timeline, he had to meet people who were affected by the murders of the case he could not solve in 1986, which of course he finally did in 2016.

It's just that when he goes back to 1986, doesn't whatever that he does then unravels everything he had accomplished in the future?

To me, the only one time travel show that actually make sense is the episode Don't Blink in Doctor Who. 

Watch this short clip and you'd know what I mean.

Don't Blink (2007)

And it's absolutely brilliant.


Getting rid of stray cats from your garden

Stray cats are getting on our nerves.

They sleep on top of our cars. They leave dirty paw prints on our car's clean white finish.

And worst of all they poop on the garden where get I in and out of my car, so much so that when I come back from work in the evenings, I would have to use my flashlight to make sure I don't step on poop.

I tried googling for cat repellents but couldn't find anything that's simple enough.

I read about covering the whole garden with wire mesh because cats do not like to walk on it. Neither do I though.

Another way is to spray the garden with ammonia. Cats won't like the smell. But then again neither would I.

Then my hubby had a great idea: spray the grass with vinegar.

I thought why not since it's natural, safe and I wouldn't mind the smell. At least it wouldn't be as bad as ammonia. 

So I took a spray pistol, filled it with 50:50 vinegar and water and started spraying that spot where I get in and out of my car.

And it worked!

Not only there is now no more poop in the garden, the cats stopped sleeping on top of our cars too.


Godzilla: King of the Monsters ★★★☆☆

Godzilla: King of the Monsters (2019)

I am not really a Godzilla movie person but I remember back in those days when I watched and followed Ultraman and Godzilla shows on television with much fervor.

So when my good friend, Wee Yin suggested we watch the latest Godzilla movie, I said why not.

What can I say? The visual effects and the battle scenes are fantastic but the rest is meh.

Like what Wee Yin said: just have Godzilla and all the monsters and remove the people.

The only character I like was the daughter Madison, played by Millie Bobby Brown.

I felt she brought out the character quite well.

The rest? They kinda irritated me.

The mother especially. I don't how her brain works and her tirade how she can "save" the world made me roll my eyes goodness knows how many times. I was like, really?

The antagonist is none too antagonistic.

And the rest are all too bland for mention.

And I don't know about the physics of the scenes. I am horrible at physics in school but at the rate that the monsters dived in and out of the sea and smashed down every thing in the city, I wonder how the boats stayed where they are and the cast don't get hit by anything.

But all in all, it was fun watching just the monsters alone. 


No choice but to ride the storm out

No one has made me angry and no one has betrayed me for quite awhile now.

Until very recently.

I made the effort to spend some time with that someone but what I got was blame and judgment and very unkind words.

I got quite mad but I was in no position to even defend myself.

So I just kept quiet willing the minutes to go faster till I can extricate myself from the situation.

A few days have passed now but I find that I still get affected by it. The emotion is still quite raw.

But I have already come to an acceptance that my emotions will come no matter what I do. I can't avoid them. So as always, I will ride them out till they subside.

But it's taking much longer to do that this time.

And it's also a decision I make. When I begin to get affected by it, I stop myself and decide not to be. I decide to stop dwelling in it. I decide to forgive.

Though it's not easy. Not at all.


Things don't happen in threes, do they?

People say that things happen in threes. I don't think they do. It's how you see things and how you put things together. And it so happened that I had these three things happened these three days with my car:

1. I heard a sound in the engine. Not sure what it is yet. Sounds like the engine belt or something. But I don't hear it anymore for now.

2. I received a parking summon. I thought I don't need to on a Saturday.

3. My tyre was flat this morning. So I got stranded at home. Till I finally got someone to come fix it.

I hope it stops at three, at least for now.


Do you know what your strengths are and what to do with them?

I had a good coaching season with my good friend Ee-Tan this afternoon.

I had an activity where I got her to choose two pictures that resonated with her and she choose these two:

Everyone of us would read the same pictures differently. How would you read these?

And we had a good and long engaging session using the Gallup CliftonStrengths. We talked about what her strengths are and how they can help her grow and improve herself.

And she is proud of them and it is so her to have these as her top-5: Adaptability, Communication, Positivity, Woo and Activator.

Knowing your strengths is a very good thing. It will help you be even better at what you are already good and natural in.

Would want to know what you strengths are? If you do, let me know!


At the bank on a Friday and right before Raya

우리는 요즘 은행에 거의 가지 않는다. We seldom go to the bank these days but when I went there today—being firstly, a Friday afternoon and secondly right before the Raya hols—it took me the longest time to get my thing done.

I had no choice but thankfully it wasn't that bad. Unlike the days of old, at least I have my phone with me to keep me occupied for the entire hour of wait.

And the CIMB staff in this branch are the nicest bank staff I've met, making it very pleasant. Are they better engaged staff compared to the Maybank ones I met yesterday?


p/s please don't mind me trying out my Korean once in awhile here in my blog. And probably my Mandarin too sometimes. Learning them slow and steady but it does feel like I'm getting nowhere. 

Helter skelter headless chicken

I have so much on my plate at work these days I really feel like I am running around helter skelter like a headless chicken.

Gone are the days when I can sit down and be quiet to think.

And for a person who loves to be quiet and think, it is getting to me. I need to make time to do that at work.

But there is just too many things to keep up with.

How do you do it?


Life's governed by passwords

Life is so complicated these days when you have to remember hundred and one passwords. 

I just saw an email this morning saying that one of my account login passwords have been compromised and I was advised to change it.

Grrhh...I woke up at 5:16am and I shouldn't have checked my notifications. I spent the next 2 hours securing my accounts and I am only 20% completed.

I then began to wonder how safe my passwords are anyway.

I found this very interesting article: Calculating Password Complexity

In brief, it takes:

0.0085 seconds to break a password with all numbers like 123456789

1.8 seconds to break a password with all lower case like strawberry

7.6 minutes to break a password with a mix of lowercase and uppercase characters like capPuCciNo

31 minutes if we include in numbers in a 8 character password like r2d2c3PO

4 hours if we add in symbols for a 8 character password like %ZBGbc]8

4 years if we increase that to 10 characters

It is therefore advised that our passwords should be at least 10 characters long and one that uses upper and lower case letters, numbers and symbols.

And we are not to use the same one on multiple accounts.

How are we then to create and remember all those passwords?! Worse when some accounts require us to change it every 30 to 90 days!

But here's an idea. 

I watched a video recently on LinkedIn Learning on how to improve your memory and there was a section on creating and remembering passwords. It quite simple actually though you do need some creativity and memory to remember it.

You make up a sentence and you use the first letter of every word in that sentence. For example, you can say Hi! My name is Chloe and I am 20 years old. How do you do?


Your password will be very strong and you'd actually remember it.

Awesome right?


This song really makes me happy

I can't remember which church I was in when I heard it being played over a video presentation when I Shazammed it.

If you are curious, yes, I've been visiting churches these days to sing under Grace Notes.

How I wish I can do this song in my church. But with my team being just one keyboard and one vocal, there is no way I can do it.

Tak terbayang kebesaran-Mu
Your greatness is unimaginable
Dan tak terbanding kekuatan-Mu Tuhan
And Your power is unmatchable
Kau megah bagiku
You're majestic to me
Seg'nap jiwa dan pengharapan
All of my soul and hope
T'lah kuserahkan 'tuk rencana-Mu Tuhan
I surrender them to Your plan, God
Kau Raja atasku
You are my King

Hanya Kau yang layak di tinggikan
Only You are worthy to be lifted up

Ajaib Kau Tuhan
You're miraculous
Agung dan perkasa
Great and mighty
Kau sumber kemenanganku
You're my source of victories
Layak berkuasa
You deserve to rule
Mem'rintah s'lamanya
Reigning forever
Yesus Kaulah raja mulia
You are the King of Majesty

~by JPCC Worship